I Think Therefore I Am (insane)
Cogito ergo sum (insania)
‘I Think Therefore I Am’ was a statement made by René Descartes and although it can be argued to mean many different things it is not the basis of the statement being made here. My concern is about the effects.
It is obvious that there is thought but how it is created, who created it and has it anything to do with the reality of what a human being is. This will probably be continually discussed, believed and pondered until it becomes unnecessary through lack of interest, or directly experienced beyond thought.
A problem cannot be solved by the same consciousness that created it. Einstein:
There’s a thought!
Most people believe that they are their thought process or at least believe that the thoughts that arise in their mind are theirs and belong to them. This is no more true than a BBC radio broadcast belonging to the radio which receives it.
Question? What is going to be your next thought. Anyone who has spent any time practicing meditation will say that they generally have a difficult time trying to concentrate on a specific subject while spurious thoughts keep arising in the background trying to claim their attention. It is usually then that we are told we need to spend time trying to control thought in order to create a peaceful state, but this control is in itself stressful. It seems to me that if thought arises in us without our permission and those thoughts are not welcome at the time they arise, then we have no control over our thought processes. So who is it that doesn’t have control and why is the mind producing thoughts that we don’t want. These thoughts are not me obviously, they arise in me. I am the one who is being troubled by them. How many people are not able to sleep at night because thought is so intense due to worry, which cause all kinds of mental, emotional and physical stress and disease. Eventually we go to sleep and dream these stressful thoughts and the only time we get any rest from them is in deep sleep. I am sure most people in the world have experienced this situation many times in their lives, but is this normal and if it isn’t, what can be done to rectify it?
So many philosophies and religions say, ‘learn to control your mind’, which creates more conflict, or ‘get to some thoughtless state’ which is only temporary like deep sleep, and in the process we become thoughtless human beings living in a cave or a world of our own. Alternatively we are told to think positively in the midst of the bombardment of negative thoughts.
When I was very young a neighbour who lived in a flat, two stories above me on the twelfth floor, walked to the fourteenth floor, jumped off and impaled herself on the railings below. Even at a young age I imagined the conversation going on inside of her head that eventually suggested to her to kill herself. I then imagined all of the conversations going on in other peoples’ heads that I couldn’t hear. What would I be hearing if I could. Later as I got older I realised what they were by the outside effects in the world. Insanity in a multitude of forms masquerading as intelligence and hidden in the realm of thought.
I Think Not!….
Therefore I am Not Insane!
So here is how it seems to me.
Human beings do not think in the way we think we think. I think we are insanely attached to thought.
Confusing yes! Because the thoughts haven’t arranged themselves into a pattern of satisfactory understanding or what is commonly termed belief. So please suspend your belief for a few moments, you can have them back later.
Let us look at this in a different way.
I will start off with me or you. The one who is now looking out of our eyes, now. The one who is hearing and so on, or more to the point the one who is experiencing. It is the same one who was experiencing when you were younger and had a different body with different thoughts, memories and intelligence and will be the same one in the future when our body grows old and our experience expands or contracts. While all of these things changed, you remained the same. no labels, just you. The same one who is looking out of me having a different experience.
This you or me that we can sense has only one ability. and that is to pay attention. The free will to pay attention to whatever it desires in the present moment. This is the experience of life.
What can we choose to pay attention to? I can pay attention to me, which is internal or I can pay attention to anything external in the creation outside. Simple!
The confusion comes as we are faced with a myriad of useless and stressful thoughts arising in the mind that start to claim our attention, which we falsely belief to be the truth. All we have is attention and this is where we mistakenly choose to apply it, ceaseless thoughts derived in fear without knowing. The constant flow of thought, clouding the mind, and leaving no room for direct present experience.
Am I suggesting that there should be no thought? No!
I am suggesting that the thoughts should exist as a personal aid in physical life instead of a continual source of threat and control. Then we can choose to pay attention to them as and when they are needed because they do not demand attention due to fear. Only then we can have free experience of life in a natural state.
If a thought arises in the mind that there is no background fear present, then one is either living in a natural state or in the prison of ones own false security. Thoughts cannot provide truth, only opinionated belief. Freedom is felt for no reason at all.Thoughts appear after the fact.
If this is true then there is also a reason why this problem has arisen.
Why have our thoughts become so fearful? Because they are derived from fear! Answer found? No!
Fear is the first effect of the source problem which is the mis-identification of who or what we really are.
So who or what are we? We are the one who is experiencing, simply you, nothing added, always there, and if we pay attention to that, the problem will dissolve.